Starting Stats to much Christmas Food!

So far Stats goes as follows.
Height: 6"3 or so.
Weight: 214
Chest: 44 inches
Waist: 41inches
Arms: 15inches
Legs:  25.8

Those are the only measurements i really look forward to changing. Goals are just to get more lean. Lose some of the body weight, get bigger arms, legs, and shrink the waist a bit. I took some pics to seen any changes before and after and what not. Should be interesting and i should seem some changes.

Logging More Data...

I am going to hopefully log in more data. Mostly about my Body weight, Sets and reps and log my progress more closely. Also my eating habits and how long i sleep and what not. This will hopefully keep me on track and let me see my results more closely. This should be interesting!

Family On Christmas!!!

Glad that i had a chance to spend time with my family! It's always great to see them and catch up on things. Just spending time with people who you don't see often makes you appreciate a lot more things in life. I am thankful to have such a family to spend time with!

Family bonding...

Nothing beats just hanging out with the family. Relaxing and enjoying their company. Sharing stories and having endless laughs. Keep these memories close and never let them slip away no matter what! Merry Christmas!

Awkward Gift exchange...

I always thought it is just slightly awkward when Christmas comes around. When you receive a present its always a awkward "Omg thank you" and a hug and then look at it for awhile. Maybe it's just be but i love all the gifts i am given but i always thought it was a little weird. There goes my random thought lol.

Snatching 95kg over 200lbs!!!

Here is one of the action shots of one of the comps i was in. I love it! It's all of my months of training broken down into one simple picture. This is why i love this sport. Raw power, explosiveness, and determination all in one picture. :D

Sacrifices for your sport...

Anyone who has been in a sport knows what it feels like to Sacrifice things for your sport. It sucks... the only thing that makes it worth it is knowing you have improved and all of your hard work paying off. It's hard to stay on track especially if there are more negative. For those who are still going through that now. Keep your head up and stick to your training. It WILL pay off in the long run.

Back to basics...

Feeling great about going back to strictly technique! I am on a new journey for perfection. Hopefully in a couple of months i will be more technically sound then i have ever been. This does not mean i let up and or be content on where i am at. Just means i work harder then i ever have before. Staying motivated and humble lets GO! :D

This is only the Beginning!

Although i have gotten stronger in the past month increase all my lifts. I learned something from today. I need more Technique i have set new personal goals and am now on a new path to obtain them. After this Christmas Break going to start eating slightly better and working out a little more on things i need to excel in this sport. This is only the beginning!

Pressure..

For so far it feels like i thrive under pressure. That if there is someone in the audience that i never seen before i try my hardest to show them what i am capable of. For example my grandpa who had cancer who is the audience when  i was lifting in my competition. I broke my personal record total by 13kg. Which is HUGE. I know i will perform to the best of my ability on Saturday. I just have to focus and rely on my training.

I wrote this Before i knew my grandpa passed away.

I am standing alone in the dark, 

searching and thinking how to start,

should I cry with all the rest,

or should I keep it in and build the stress?

Stress that will haunt me till the end of time?

because i couldnt help him or give him time.

because he is slowly passing away,

and i truly wish i can give him a day,

i love him like any kid should,

I should be by his side i truly should,  

But i can’t and i dont know why, 

But when i see him i will cry,

cry because i am mad,

because one day that will be my dad, 

but that is dar away from now, 

but i have to know and find out how, 

how to deal with the suffering and pain,

and guide my family through the rain, 

through the rain and into the light, 

because our futures are still very bright, 

it is hard but we will get threw it, 

death comes we already knew it, 

we knew it was gonna come but not so fast,

so let’s be there for him till the last, 

R.I.P Grandpa We miss you. 

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The perfect Clean! Olympic Weightlifting

Wow so quick update with my training. I was performing the Clean singles at 85kg roughly 170lbs. I was trying to perfect the "bouncing out" effect when you perform the Clean. This saves you a tremendous amount of effort when your getting out of the Clean part of your Clean and jerk. Anyways it was my last rep until i had to squat. So the following is what i felt during the clean. To summarize whats below there i had a near perfect clean with little to no effort!

I finished my leg drive until my shoulders were slightly  over the bar but i was vertical. The bar path was close and i was literally pulled under the bar. By the time i realized i was half way up on my clean and was not using my legs at all! I was completely surprised! I am extremely grateful for the coaches i have that train me and put me in the best possible position to make me successful!

Countdown to my competition!

Well i am halfway through the week and i am so pumped up for my competition this Saturday! The interesting part of it is that my cousin might show up and see me lift. Its always good to have some additional pressure. Whats the point of lifting if there isn't something to lose right? Either way it will be another experience that i will always remember good or bad it will shape how my training will progress and be this next upcoming cycle.

Vacation at last!

Well the first few days of my vacation was almost exactly as i like it. Doing NOTHING just lounging around in sweats and a long sleeve shirt and doing nothing. It was cold so it was perfect weather to stay inside. I am looking forward to seeing my family this upcoming holidays. Nothing is better then just to kick back and enjoy each others company and just be thankful everyone is together. Hope your all having a good one to!

Finals week! Finished!

Although this semester was a little stressful I have finally taken more information than I thought I would! Although I wish I could retain as much information and learn as fast as a computer butI cannot yet. Although I wish I could I just have to focus and study more. Yea... Me STUDY? I have not studied in a very long time. Although I have passed a majority of my classes I have yet to force my self to study... That should and will change. Sadly I will have to make some small changes but I will change for the better. Hopefully this semester will reflect my changes for the better.

Gotta push through...

Just found out that i got a D on my history class.. i really hate when it goes down to the wire. It gets really discouraging when you put in all of that work and then all of a sudden its like it never counts. Not blaming the teacher, not blaming anyone else. Just myself but i guess these are lessons learned that you have to push through in order to find yourself i suppose.

On the right path...

I finally feel i am on the right path.. i mean it took awhile to figure out what i wanted to know but now i know that i am on my way there. It is something that i actually like and hopefully will be very successful at. The job market is always going up so i hope it will work out for me.
What i am hoping to get in is something in the IT field. Or eventually getting to work with databases, web development or something along the lines of that. Lets hope for a better future.

Christmas Spirit?

I don't really believe in the Christmas Spirit what i do believe in is being in the Christmas mood. Where your happy for no reason. Where you just smile all day and don't know why. Where you all of a sudden are in  a better mood when your stuck in traffic... ok maybe that is just me but you know what i mean.

I take this month to be thankful and just spend time with my family and relax. Cause if your a college student and have a part time or full time job we all LOVE to relax. So take this time and not be productive at all! You deserve it! :D

How will you be remembered?

I always wondered how will i be remembered? Will it be good or will it be bad? I always try to be a good person regardless the situation. I mean i try and be a upstanding guy. I hope that people look back and think the same thing. This might sound like i am self conscious which i am not. But i just want to leave a positive mark . Or a mark at all for that matter.. just had me thinking for a quick minute.

Playing for Money Vs playing for pride?

Well as i am here waiting for a game to end and warming up. I heard that we are playing for money. I mean i was playing 100% yesterday when i didn't know we were playing for a cash prize. But now that i know we are playing for money that only sweetens the deal!
I play for pride and for my team and my drive to be the best. I will make sure that i wont let anyone down.

Edited:

My team took second after a long day in playoffs. It was worth the medal and the Outstanding player of my division :). It was a great experience and i am glad i took part in this great experience! :D

Ray William Johnson Banned From Youtube?

Quick not on what happened today in the morning around 10am my time. I saw that Ray was banned. Now that is a first because i never have seen a BIG You Tube Partner banned before. I mean if you look at the business side of things it would mean a HUGE blow for advertisement deals and so on. Not to mention all that time spent in making and producing those videos. Although he did get his account back with a couple of errors makes you wonder what really happened to have his account shut down. A glitch? A hacker? Or just the new You Tube layout not handling all of the traffic? What do you think? 

Volleyball Videos soon! Hopefully..

Well i am going to play in a volleyball tournament and i hope my wonderful girl friend records some footage. I would love to keep that game play! I played middle through high school and then went and played outside in Club and college for a year. Going to dust off the old volleyball shows and see what i got in them! Leegoo! :D

Strive to be the greatest...

If you had a chance to be great and i do mean GREAT. Would you do it? If it meant taking chances, going through pain, dedicating your self to something that requires repetitive repetition? To strive for perfection? You might say yes to all of these things but do you really have the mental endurance to take on such a task?

Any athlete knows what mental endurance in a sport takes and how hard it is to reach a breaking point during a match, game, race, etc. When your faced with a challenge that you are not 100% positive you will win. Will you still try? Be physically strong is one thing but mentally strong is a different story. Strive to be the greatest make that only other opponent YOU. YOUR the only competition and enemy you will battle with throughout your life. Conquer it now before its to late.

How far i have come.

If I think back about almost 6 months ago I just started Olympic Weightlifting. Ever since then with the help of my coaches i have been making leaps and bounds in the sport! I am very excited and anxious to see where this will take me.
Although i do have bad days its what you do after those bad days that make a difference. I am thankful for all of the opportunity's i have been given.

Two a day training.

Well today i started my two a day training. Its not like its body building but its more for purpose.
For Olympic lifting you have to have strong lats, core, shoulders, and back. Those are the other main factors besides the obvious leg strength needed. So my coach wrote a workout for me to strengthen those areas i need to be stronger at. Feels good to be in the gym twice a day.

Occupy La Police scared?

So apparently the police in La were supposed to remove everyone from the park at 12:01am last night. Well today the Occupy Protesters are still there. Although i don't really care if they stay there or not because they are not doing anything but taking up space in my opinion. I would like the police to actually do SOMETHING instead of letting people do whatever they want "for the most part".

It reminds me of how the London riots started. People "protesting" and then a large majority of them made it violent. And the police not wanting to look bad did nothing. The end result.. millions of dollars in damages and thankfully no one hurt. Just waiting for this to play out. What will the police do in the end?

Black Friday experience.

Although i saved a bundle it cost me alot of sleep... but saved me money... i wonder what is the trade of? Besides the obvious of course. I keep on yawning almost uncontrollably and my body welcomes a warm comfy bed.

Animals When it rains!

I took some pictures *excuse the quality* lol.  And they were of a hawk or falcon.. and a squirrel using its tail as a umbrella! Haha it cracked me up hope you can see the pictures!

UC Davis police Brutality

This is a intense video showing students of UC Davis getting pepper sprayed. Make you wonder what else is going on that isn't getting as much attention as it should. What do you think? Should there be more press on the "Occupy movement?" Or should this get swept under the rug as well as the treatment of these protesters. Everyone has a right to be heard what do you think?

Halo anniversary!

This game is the reason why i started playing video games. Brings back great memories. I recommend this game for the campaign experience and the old school maps. Everything looks smooth and clean!

Be confident in what you do!

Just as the title says be confident in what you do! If it's a job or working out to going out on your first date. Hold your self up as if you already won/ are the best at what you do. Of course there is a limiting standard experience. But once you have that then stop doubting yourself or second guessing more then usual.

You were hired for a reason. Or the girl is dating you for a reason. Because YOU are good at what YOU do. So be confident and ALWAYS keep learning or staying ahead of the game. This will even solidify your confidence not only in your self but in other people also.

For weightlifters its almost a MUST to have a certain "swagger" about you. You don't walk up to the platform doubting your self scared that you can't make the next lift. Your looking down, demeaning the weight, making it do what YOU want to do. I even go as far as visualizing  me already completing the lift. Standing victorious as everyone else is cheering and congratulating me on how easy it was or how cool it looked.

If your confident enough and have the right tools and experience. You will perform to the best of you ability.

Getting used to the Mac Book and Apple Products...

Some simple yet more complex things i have learned about these products. The iPad is very easy to use and like mini laptop just really smooth and touch screen! Love the games and everything else it has to offer. You tube, twitter, Facebook, almost seem to use it more then my real laptop at times.

The iCloud has its good and bad points. It sucks because you have to re download everything you had before your able to use the new software. But it is great because from now on your able to download anything you had on your I pod touch/iphone or visa versa when your at home. 

Being a windows user all my life and Android user also. I find it about a 4/10 difficulty getting used to> Just the Mac i would say is about a 9/10 getting used to all of its different controls and keyboard options. Extremely different from Windows OS. Still pretty interesting though i got to admit. It's fun learning about new things that are extremely addictive and entertaining. 

My Olympic Weightlifting Competition video!

As you can see by my facial expressions i was so happy that i made the lifts i did. I have corrected a lot of technical problems i had in my last competition. So that was a huge part of my success, without the coaching i have received so far i would not have made it even close to any of these lifts. I also have been working and training hard to achieve these goals. Enjoy the video!

Competition Pics/ video soon!

Just had a competition today and will upload all of the videos and pics sometimes tomorrow afternoon! Thank you to everyone visiting my blog. Its a work in progress and new to the whole thing. Seem to be doing ok for now. Thanks for all of the views and support! Any advice or anything let me know it always helps!

A whole lotta noting lol

Well... i was just testing out my front facing camera.. messing around. And decided to post this up. I said anyway like 10 times... lol. I will make sure that doesn't happen again haha.

Life is to short...

Life is short you have to live it up. To a extent don't pull a Charlie Sheen and think that is "living up". What i mean is don't pass up on the small  things in life. Such as watching a football game with your family or parents. Or just relaxing with your friends. Just telling someone close to you how great of a friend they are can make a difference. Because these are the things you think of when someone close to you passes away. All of the things you could of done. Mend any broken ties and enjoy life and live it how it should be with no regrets.

Apple Murder!!

 They think the knife is there friend...

 Now they think they out number Knife...

Knife has the last laugh with his now best friend Mr. Drink...

Late night healthy snack.. Tasted amazing! I received the juicer for free and i am glad i have it now need to learn how to mix a lot more things lol. I highly recommend it!

A look at Technology in the future...

I just wanted to share this. If the future looks like this its going to be crazy expensive. And i don't think this would happen anytime soon. I mean have Microsoft looked out their windows? Do they see how this economy is looking? I mean its cool as a idea its downright sexy " mean being a geek." If i had all that technology in my house i wouldn't leave it lol. What do you think?

Occupy La, Wall Street, The World

Listening to the radio and hearing some of the people speak on Occupy Situation makes me feel like nothing will change. Although i admit i don't know EVERYTHING. What i do know is that without a leader or a concrete reason why they are all Occupying it will fail. Of course i would love a positive change for the common good but what are they all really fighting for?

Give everyone what they want answers. Make a purpose that everyone can agree on. Fight for a logical cause that will actually be successful. My belief is that they cannot Occupy forever. They need a more effective approach then just sitting there and "making there presence known".  Just my 2 cents.

Html, java, C++ Oh my! Tech Geek!

Thinking about Studying more on things that will possibly lead into a good career for me... Duh?! Right? Well there are a variety of things to do that are related in the tech field. I am going to start buying some books and reading more because i haven't had any good excuse to pick up a book in awhile. If i get any books i will post the link and or the pros and cons of it! Hopefully i stick with it!

My Saturday Workout...

This is me in training doing some Front squats with a Jerk. This was my last set and as the video said i was laughing because i was extremely sore. I don't know why i laugh when i am in pain but still works out for the best lol. That day was extremely fun and glad that the workout had the perfect amount of intensity and some new workouts that i haven't done in awhile.

Rockstars a College students best friend

Well i had training in the morning then a 4 and a half hour Java Programming class. Thankfully as if the soda machine Gods new i was going to be taking that class this semester, had a vending machine that dispenses Rock Stars. Although i am extremely tolerant against these drinks because i drink them like soda. They still give me a little kick and they taste good to me :D.

I probably need to move to coffee soon. And recommendations would be helpful! Except black coffee it taste like a battery to me.. and yes... i licked a battery before..

My Volunteering experience Lifting for kids...

I Volunteered at my local Community center for a none profit organization i work for. Lifting Well Face Book link here >> http://tiny.cc/mlpo3 <<< . It was great seeing all of the kids reactions when i was clean and jerking around 220pounds. I was in "The Zone" so when i saw their faces i didn't react to them but i remember the shocked and jaw dropping faces they made lol. It was great and we all had fun lifting for them! It was our first time ever lifting in a public setting. The most important part was that we had fun doing it and just gained some publicity! It was great! :) If you live in Socal let me know if you want more info! Thanks!

Being a Geek...

Being a geek in my opinion is not a bad thing anymore. I consider it a good thing if not a compliment! Since technology is literally taking over almost everything that is related to jobs and it is also incorporated in everyone's lives. Now don't get me wrong i am not a Bill Gates Jr or anything just somethings that are simple. Like somethings that other people do not normally do on a daily basis. I am hopefully going to get into the IT field or something along those lines. Only time will tell. Know anyone who hates technology? It just takes time and practice to educate your self! :)

First Vlog: Student Parking Empty!

Oh hello there! This is my first Vlog hopefully others will come after i feel better. Kinda sick when i recorded this lol. Quality will improve hopefully but i am using my Droid Bionic camera to record this :). If you want to subscribe then by all means go ahead :D. I just briefly talk about how I wish the student parking was like this in my school when i go to school in the morning. I am sure everyone has this problem!

Just keep it simple.

No need for expensive trips. Tons of jewelry. Or even nights on the town every week. Happiness is what makes you smile :). Here is me and my girlfriend of 4 + years :). Just having a good time :)

My dogs! :D

My dogs are so funny! They always love to go outside for like 10 minutes. But when they go out side they always go straight to our neighbors dog. Right behind my BBQ in the corner. They love to bark as loud as they can and stir up commotion with all of the other dogs that can here them. I always tease them before they are let out going...1....2...and.....*longer pause* 3! And they bolt out as fast as they can. The chubbier dog "Trixy" tries to run up the stairs but has to be careful cause she cant jump the way she used to lol. Enjoy the video!

Sleep...

I lay in bed with empty thoughts,

About the could and could not's,

Could of been productive today,

Could not of been a good day, 

Could of been a good time,

Could not of made it to work on time,

Could of thought of better things to do,

Could not of learned a thing or two,

Could be asleep right now,

Could not be focused enough got to study now,

Could worry about tomorrow and what it brings,

Could not sleep thinking about all of these things,

I could try,

Good night.

Teen moms and being pregnant. some thoughts...

Looking around and seeing a lot of my friends from high school and think dang.. a lot of them are pregnant. I am not judging them by the fact they made this decision. But i kinda feel bad for them because i think what rode did they take to get there in their life? To much partying? Drinking? Or just ill informed about how easily they can get pregnant. I have some close friends who got pregnant at a young age. But i just think about when i have kids will they start having kids even younger then my friends in high school? Will it be socially acceptable by then? Just makes you think sometimes when you look around and notice how many kids are being born at such a early time in their parents lives. We can only support and hope they give their child the best future it can have.

Disney land in the near future?

Well since i have been with my gf for about 4 years +. I am deciding to get a disney land pass for her :p. Hopefully she enjoys it and it turns out to be a good investment! Will post up pictures of our first time going go most likely next week or the week after :).

Relax! Life is short! Drama free zone...

As you all know i am a extremely optimistic person. Sometimes we all just need to relax. Just take some deep breaths and move along. Otherwise you can possibly set your whole day just pissed off because of one event. It could snowball and lead to other things if left unattended. Especially in relationships yup i went there.. sadly if someone drags their feet and not solve something right away that indeed will snowball into a bigger problem. Some problems can be swept under the rug and can be approached at a better time MOST cannot.

Just try to keep your life drama free as possible. Look at the people you hang around with if you are not the person always causing drama. Sometimes fixing others peoples problems all the time is wearing you out and making you irritable. Just food for thought take care! 

Healthy lifestyle...

I personally think that if you work out properly. That means ladies and some men. The treadmill can only take you so far. The number of calories that you "burn" on a treadmill are not close to accurate. Everyone is diffeent and there bodies react differently for now i will just name a few.

Circuit training...
Circuit training is very effective in burning calories. If your dedicated to weight loss i recommend it. Although it is not the cure all of type of exercises. There must be a good mixture of exercises in there such as upper, lower, abs and leg exercises. Just make sure that everything is done safety and correctly. Because if you don't and they are just hard to perform and your doing them incorrectly they will not benefit you as much.

Pros: Fat loss, gain lean muscle, build muscle, calorie burner

Cons: Very fatiguing, could cause injury, extremely difficult, need a lot of motivation.
Weight Training...

Overall i think is the most positive thing you could do and should do while in the gym or even if you have some at home. VERY important thing is to lift CORRECTLY or else it will either damage your joints, not be as effective, or even hurt you. If your lifting for the first time try and find someone who knows what they are doing. Because sometimes having someone watch you is the best thing you can do. You do not have to have a personal trainer but someone who can help and teach you the right moments. For girls its a HUGE MYTH you will not look like a MAN or have really broad shoulders. It has almost impossible with weight training alone to be "bulky" "look like a man" and so on. Men like women who look athletic or in somewhat decent shape.

Pros: Gain muscle, Lose fat, look skinny, look athletic. more confidence

Cons: If no proper training could injure your self, seek guidance, bring a buddy, time consuming.

These are only my opinions and i understand everyone is different. Me personally i do Olympic Weightlifting as you all know by now lol. I like it the best since it is a full  body workout literally. Let me know what works the best for you. Or hopefully you can try some of the training i listed just take a step to get healthy it will be a great journey for you!

Got a Droid Bionic!!!

Wow so i saved up and finally bought a phone i really love! The Droid Bionic i really recommend this phone if you are into the Android OS. It runs smooth the speed is INSANE nothing was over exaggerated when it was advertised! It was worth buying for only 249.99 on Amazon.com its the cheapest there. Although it might have some bugs there is soon to be a patch in November that should fix everything. So far it runs smooth for me no complaints here. I also have a strong 4g connection with great reception in my area. So far so good  the picture was taken with my Droid X :D. What can i say i love AnDROID. 

Emotions...

Emotions 

Emotions run high as we speak,

the future is bright but the present is bleak,

where is the light when it is dark?

we fake our toughness as hollow as bark,

one wrong word and it could come crashing down,

or riddled with holes and in our emotions we drown,

we must rise above and raise our heads high,

because emotions run deep we just have to resist the tide,

Choices...

Choices

He Walked in the store with one thing in mind,
to take every cent and every dime,
to steal what was never his,
this was his chance to make it big,
to make new friends and be really cool,
to be the toughest kid in school,
he stuck the gun to the clerk and said,
"Put the money in the bag or you will be hurt!",

the clerk with fear in his eyes nodded his head,
for the fear of anything else he would be dead,
but he has been through this one time to many,
and vowed he would never be robbed of any dime or penny,
he took a gun hidden underneath the counter,
there was a storm of steel and led,
the clerk was injured but the kid was dead,
never to make it big,
because of the choices he made as a kid.

The taste of success...

The competition i was in last Saturday was a great learning experience and success! I completed 4/6 lifts and broke all of my personal records i had. I ended up finishing with 90kg =198 pounds on the Snatch. And 115kg = on the clean and jerk 253 pounds. Next time i will have a video up to show me competing :D. I am also competing this Saturday again for a charity even to raise money for women who cannot afford mammograms. I am extremely thankful and appreciate i am able to compete for such a cause. I have know a lot of people who were and are affected by breast cancer.

If you are interesting in donating or want more information leave a comment and  i will get back to you as soon as possible.

The taste of success is a addicting one. It will only make me work and train harder to be able to far exceed my goals and expectations. In no way i will let this get to my head. I am never satisfied in just being "good" i want to work hard to be perfect. I mean my first big goal is to win a gold medal at collegiate nationals. It starts some where why not start now?

This happened yesterday it was  my Grandmas 81st birthday! She looks completely healthy and full of life! This  was great seeing all of my family. We all have been through a rough time with my Grandpa with cancer and all of the other stresses of life. But other then that we are a tight knit family that always sticks together no matter what the tough times and or drama that comes our way. Thought you guys might like a short video :) enjoy!

Comp day on the platform, emotions run high

The instant spike of adrenaline, the sensation of a thousand needles shooting up and down your body. Your heart picks up speed like a runaway locomotive. The months of training all coming up to this moment that will only last a couple of seconds. Your accomplishments and or failures will forever be engraved in your mind. But the moment when you stand triumphant with all eyes on you. Will replenish all of the blood sweat and tears you expended during training. That one moment will last forever unchanged in your mind until the moment you die.

I actually went to a Ballet?!

Well today I was dragged to a Romeo and Juliet Ballet and it was interesting so far. I mean I pictured aa Ballet full of me and tights prancing around. So far I am right. It is not that big of a deal but so far it is actually interesting I don't feel like I want to throw my self off the balcony. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't pay 400 bucks for front row seats.  When there is a "funny" part in the play i find it amusing that the laughter starts in the front and ripples backward. As if everyone in back doesn't want to be left out lol.  If you like Ballet I recommended it :D

Being jealous a good thing?

Being jealous is it necessary? I remember when I was in middle school I was always jealous. Always wanted to be taller and skinnier. Always worked harder then most to just barley be close to the skinnier kids. But as grew up and grew into my body I was less and less jealous. I was more confident and when I had my first serious relationship there was a period when I was jealous. It was possibly the first 4 months or so not overly possessive but I would get that feeling every once and a while. But jealousy in my opinion can be portrayed as "caring more" and women might miss when the guys never get jealous.

 But the important thing I think women should take from that is that the men have confidence not only in themselves but in their relationship. Do not and I repeat do not take this as a sign of unfaithfulness. Trust me there will be other signs for this and they won't be pretty. I think overall jealousy can be a ugly thing. Jealousy can be mistaken for clingynes. Which some girls like and guys do to. But jealousy is a negative aspect of any relationship and should be avoided if you can. Most of the time it's the person who is jealous that has an insecurity, so it is up to the other person to help them overcome it. Let me know what you think :).

My bully experience

I remember when i was a kid in elementary school i wasn't the biggest kid nor the smallest i was just about average height but not weight. There was this kid Josh who was as big as me but was extremely aggressive. He sat across from me and would always kick him under the table i would also kick him back but that would just fuel the fire. One day we got a little creative and put a pencil in his shoe laces so it could stab me. That day he left two big lashes on my knee and leg. I told my teacher who sent him to the principals office.

Later that week he came back smiling while we were in our line before we went into the classroom. For some reason i walked right up to him because i am fed up with him bothering me. So i walked up and said, " You are going to leave me alone, everyone knows what you did to me! No one even likes you! So stop bothering and leave me the hell alone!" When i was little "hell" was a bad word lol and everyone looked at me like i punched the kid.

Fast forward 7 years later...
When i was walking home from football practice i heard someone call my name. I turned around and it was Josh. He stood at about 5"6 and then i stood about 6"1 and i smiled and said, "Hey long time no see!" We talked for a little bit and went are separate ways. The last thing i thought after i walked away was i am glad i wasn't a bully when i was little or i would have been short all my life.

Competition Week...

This week is extremely crucial on preparing me for my Saturday competition. Weight will not be a issue the main thing i am going to be focusing on is the technique aspect of it. The weight will come but the technique has to be solid so that i am both physically and mentally prepared for the competition. Trying to make everything perfect as possibly is the key to success.

 This also could possibly the competition that i qualify for collegiate nationals. * my last total was about 10kg away from the qualifying total* This is also a very emotional too because i promised by grandpa who has cancer that i would take him to see me perform at nationals. I am so looking forward to tell them the news and setting a date that we all can look forward to. Win or lose he will defiantly have that lasting memory of the trip we both took to nationals.

The past and its affects in the present...

We have all done it. When we catch our selves blankly staring at our computer screens or whatever happens to be in front of us at the time. We remember all of the good times with our past relatives or friends that we now no longer have contact with. Only in our dreams we have the occasional conversation trying to get back in touch with them with an unknown happiness that overwhelms you.

But on the other hand some people have the unfortunate occasion of remembering all of mistakes of the past. From that one decision that changed their life to the other choice that might have closed 10 doors and opened one. The only mistake you can do from remembering the past negative choices you made is to dwell on them. To bring those negative emotions back into your mind and let it affect the people around you. Although you do sometimes need to vent on things but they should never impact your present relationships or they might soon also become apart of your past.

Live in the present the past is over for a reason, if you think of a negative moment in the past its another moment you lose in the present.

Coaching and motivation

If you didn't know my part time job is being a personal trainer/Olympic Weightlifting coach. So today i was training one of our newest clients. He is going into the navy in about 8 months. And i was making him do various exercises which included him running while shoulder pressing 8 to 10 pound medicine balls. Before that he must have ran over at least 5 miles. He started slowing down apparently he had a cramp in his side. I told him "Keep going, don't slow down you will be glad this is the only thing that hurts right now. You have to keep pushing you don't want to be that last person when your in the navy do you?" He shook his head and kept on pressing on. 

From a athletes view of things its tough both mentally and physically and even some anger could be directed at the coach. But that is normal in most situations when the person instead of channeling that anger to their workout lash it out on their coach. It is the coaches responsibility to not take it personally and motivate the athlete to keep pushing, * safely of course*  past their mental and physical limits. When training people i usually understand the mental and physical fatigue they are going through since i was also a athlete and training the same way they are right now. This is extremely important because you want to understand what the athlete  is capable of while they are in a state of both mental and physical fatigue. 

My job of being a personal trainer/ Olympic Weightlifting Coach is a rewarding one when you see them slowly improving as they progress both mentally and physically as a athlete and person. There is no other way to describe it but if i could i would say it is like a father being proud of his son/daughter. 

Dealing with heavy lifting and mental fatigue...

During a heavy cycle in my training I experienced a couple of mental obstacles. One of which was my little nephew was in the hospital for surgery. It was not a extreme surgery but he has had a past with difficult and physically tasking surgerys. Just the image of him... Just a child with tubes going in and out of him kept tuning in my mind. This happened a few days before my heavy cycle and maxing out on squats.

The other mental obstacle was my grandpa which is diagnosed with cancer. Before I was going to leave for my workout I had a text from my dad telling mehe was at the hospital with my grandpa. My heart sank as I thought how much pain he must be in. It was only two weeks ago when he saw me compete in my first competition. After that i told him i was going to take him to collegiate nationals with me next year when I qualify.

Later...

I made the decision to countinue with my training that day although on every lift I was having a battle with my mind struggling to control my emotions. During the last part of my workout I realized that I could countinue with these negative thoughts or use it to my advantage. I then made it my goal that my grandpa was going to see me perform at collegiate nationals and I was going to train as hard as I could so he can see my improvement. I finished that day with a new squat PR 150kg=330 pounds.

Finally..

No matter what hardships you might face with outside of the weight room or training. You have to push yourself to finish your workout. There will be a point where you might be mentally drained it will be up to you to decide if you were strong both mentally and physically to continute. This is just my opinion I understand everyone has a breaking point. But wanted to share my experience to just say its possible to push even if you have a bad day.

Thank you for reading. Focus on your goals and stay both mentally and physically strong during training and in life. You can be your best coach and your worst enemy.

Getting to know me...

I just stumbled upon this website by chance late into the night as you can see. I thought this would be a good outlet to describe how my training is going and other various activities. A little about my self I am 20. Full time student, part time worker, I am also in a relationship I have been for a little more then 4 years. I am somewhat scatter brained and usually good on my feet which is a dangerous combination. I am also very optimistic easy going guy and also extremely entertained which pretty much means I was that kid you saw kicking a rock across the track with a huge smile on his face.

I just want to close with I am open to comments suggestions or anything of the sort. I will try to make it a habit of posting regularly. About training, school, and exciting events. Have a couple I need to post in my next...err post..lol. Thanks for whoever reads this! And I hope you have a great day/night!